So then I invited this Russian guy and the people from my small group to do a worship night. I was getting pretty excited about it, and this seemed to be a natural outgrowth of what we'd been doing and the calls God has on us...
And so we got the Pastors' permission and invited everyone, and then...they didn't like that I wanted to do a worship circle instead of having one leader, and they weren't comfortable with the people from my small group leading worship, because they didn't know them very well or they don't trust them. I was told not to invite anyone from our church. At any rate, this vote of confidence was shattering and I was fuming. And I was ready to kick and scream, but my friends at school were encouraging and put my heart back on track. As I left school, I was like "I know I have infinite peace inside here someone with the Holy Spirit, I just need to find it." So I prayed and I went to meet the pastors. It was a long and painful couple hours, but God gave me peace. Despite disagreeing with most of what was said, I was able to keep calm and submit.
And I was completely shocked by that, honestly. It was a very clear sign of the way God has been working in my heart over the last few months and through this really frustrating situation God showed me how he's been changing me. Praise God for his peace and forgiveness, even when we don't understand.
So undeterred, we found another place. More people came. And we didn't exactly manage a circle like I had hoped, but we were able to sing a bunch of songs and pray and share testimony. And it was so freeing, such an amazing feeling to be using my gifts and being in those moments where you know God has you there for a purpose. To Him be the glory!
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