Today we celebrated Christmas in church. A Russian version of "What Child is This" was played, to which I had added an extra stanza (I'll translate it for you):
"And what joy is this now is born
Here in my heart, His inside
His love has changed everything.
He is my song forevermore."
So then I went back to my seat and we sang some praise songs...
There's this one song, Forever Reign, the Russian version is really awesome... (see the video of the English version)...
Anyway, it's like "I run into your hug" in Russian basically...and I was like "God, I don't know about singing this. I don't feel your hug. I don't deserve your hug. I feel far away. This isn't us right now."
There's this six-year old who sometimes visits our church...she's incredibly fun and just awesome. So anyway, she hasn't been around for a couple months, but she was here this morning. And about the time we got to the chorus the second time she runs up behind me and just buries a big hug into my side and holds on for at least a minute. I definitely cried, cuz I knew where that Hug really came from.
God with us.
The next song was of course "You won't relent." That song that came on and made me so angry and hurt and sad and frustrated as I was abandoning Refuge Ranch in Mexico and two little kids were in my arms crying cuz I was leaving. "You won't relent until you have it all. My heart is yours."
My old best friend incorporated one verse of "Hark the Herald Angels Sing" into a song...the chorus went like this "You shouldn't be here. But oh please don't leave me...Didn't they tell you, This isn't a place for a God...Hail the heaven-borne prince of peace
Hail the sun of righteousness
Light and life to all he brings
Ris'n with healing in His wings.
Mild he lays his glory by.
Born that man no more may die.
Born to raise the sons of earth.
Born to give them second birth."
Happy dying. Merry Christmas. And a happy new year.
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